I may be biased but so darn cute I can't take it
I did not realize until today how much a part of me was missing. Buried deep, forgotten due to lack of sleep, round the clock feedings, and continued diaper changes was a part of me that was a little lost. A part of me that makes me, well, me. That makes me feel happy, energetic, and alive. Lee makes me feel these things too, but there was another part I was missing, that I have been missing - it is the runner in me. It is the person pre-pregnancy that you know through this blog that loves to hit the open road, that loves a challenge, that loves to RUN and RUN HARD! I set out on my trail today. The trail that I trained for my marathon on, the trail that I run with my favorite running partner, and the trail that I know oh so well that I don't even need a watch to tell me what mile I am at. And as I ran, I really felt like I was flying. Cliche? Maybe. Blame the hormones. But just listening to my music, being on my trail, it all came flooding back to me. A part of me that I had forgotten and was so happy to be reunited with!
Ooo right I love running, can't you tell?!?
Like I said, I have not been a mom for too long but I have already learned in order to be a good mom you have to make some selfish time for yourself and I can not think of anything better than hitting the open trail and remembering what it was like before I was Mom. To have something just for me, to have time to be myself, to forget stressors, demands, and priorities and just focus on the task at hand. Sure it is extremely difficult for me to run even 3 miles right now and it hurts like Mile 25 at a marathon hurts, but it is my medicine, my release, my rejuvenation, and my gift to myself. To allow myself that alone time, that time to just be me and to then be able to come home refreshed and renewed to some very cute men!
How do you take time for you? Do you feel guilty taking time for yourself? Is it hard to find that time?